Labor day weekend, Sept. 2011, my family and I went to Gatlinburg, TN for vacation.
Prior to the trip, I had mentioned that I’d love to go ziplining while we were there. Others in my family agreed that they would also like to go ziplining. Then as we come into Pigeon Forge, driving down the strip, we saw a sign that said Indoor Skydiving. I then said, “Ohh, I’d love to do indoor skydiving too.” We picked up a few pamphlets of some things we would like to do while were there then made a plan of what days we would do what. We did several things over that 4 days, however today I want to talk about some things that, in the past, I would not have ever done because of fear.
Indoor skydiving and Ziplining was 2 of many things that I’ve wanted to do but had always been scared to do. In the past, I would think to myself that I’d love to do it and then I’d follow that thought up with thinking about all the reasons I shouldn’t do it, the risk that it involved and fearing I would have a panic attack. I could feel my anxiety increasing just thinking about actually doing it. Then I’d say, “I’ll never be able to do those things” therefore I never even attempted or even considered doing them. Knowing what I know now, it really brings this quote by Henry Ford to light…. “If you think you can do it or if you think you can’t do it, you are right.” I thought I couldn’t therefore I couldn’t do it.
As you continue reading you’ll see how I changed my thoughts and my vibes to I can, I want to, I will and how I overcame that sneaky ol’ anxiety and fear that tried to sneak in.
So the first thing we decided to do was to meet up with my brother and sister-in-law for indoor skydiving.
I felt good about ‘saying’ I was going to do it.
Then suddenly, there we were, paying the man so that we all could do indoor skydiving.
I felt my anxiety increase as I paid for our admission and that old negative thinking, fear of having a panic attack began to emerge. I immediately recognized it and silently asked myself, “what do you want?” My answer was, “I want to do this, experience it and enjoy it.” Then I told myself that it is ok and I am ok and reaffirmed to myself that people do this all the time and live through it and so would I. I immediately felt the anxiety and fear let up and my confidence increase.
We went onto watching a little video, listen to the instructor give us instructions and put on our flight suits. I’m still feeling good at this point.
Then we all walked into the flying room to do it.
Then it was my turn. I felt good, enjoyed it and I did it with ease.
Suddenly, after about 10 minutes being in the flying room, it almost felt like the walls were beginning to close in. It was beginning to get hot and it felt harder to breathe. I began getting anxious for it to be over and found myself enjoying it a lot less than I had before. If you deal with panic attacks you know these are potential signs that an attack is just around the corner.
I then silently asked myself again, “what do you want?” My response, “I want to do this and enjoy it” then reminded myself again by silently saying, “I am ok, this is my life and I have complete control over me and how I choose to respond, this is fun and will be over in just a few minutes. Enjoy it while you have the opportunity.” Again, fear and anxiety lowered and my confidence and enjoyment increased.
I was proud of myself when I walked out of that flying room. While I silently celebrated my accomplishment of doing something I’ve been wanting to do, I gave no attention to not having an attack nor did I share how those old pesky feelings tried to show up with my family. In other words, I gave attention, energy and focus to accomplishing what I wanted rather than what I didn’t want, which was panic attacks and the negative thinking that tried to take over. The experience was great and I felt liberated!
The next day, we had scheduled ziplining.
Same vibrational thought pattern showed up as the indoor skydiving.
Talking about ziplining increased my anxiety level a little however not enough to not do it. In the past, just talking about it would increase my anxiety so much that I would decide right then and there not to do it but not this time.
Anxiety and fear increased more when we arrived at the ziplining place, Wahoo Ziplines.
Then I talked to the lady and asked her what was the longest time we would actually be on the cable. She said the longest was probably 45 seconds. My confidence then increased. I thought, if I don’t like it, I only have to do it 45 seconds. I can handle that! I became more confident and the anxiety and fear let up.
Then as I approached the stand and was listening to our instructors teach us how to do it, I found that anxiety and fear bubbling below the surface again. Here we all were, getting ready to be released, one by one, down that cable with only a harness around us holding us on to the cable.
I reminded myself that I want to do this and enjoy the experience, I am ok and in less than 45 seconds I’ll be on the other side. This will be fun and a great experience. Enjoy it! My confidence increased.
I watched some of my family go before me including my 12-year-old son. My confidence increased more as I watched them take off down that cable.
So here I go! I’m strapped securely onto the cable and I am feeling really good about sliding down that cable.
As he let go of me and I began soaring high above the ground on this cable, I felt great! In that moment I felt a huge sense of gratitude and power for overcoming that fear and anxiety and doing what I come here to do.
Suddenly I turned backwards and couldn’t see the direction I was going. I got nervous as I tried to turn my head so I could see and prepare for the landing. Landing went smooth and my first experience with ziplining was great with only a tad bit of nervousness when I got turned backwards.
We moved onto the next line to ride. At that point, I felt very confident and was eager to do it again.
After the second line we went down, they had to shut it down because it had started thundering and lightening, however we got to reschedule and come back the next day and restart our zipline tour. We were all excited about that! We got some experience under our belts, dissolved that fear and knew that we’d get to thoroughly enjoy it the next day now since we got over the hump of the unknown (fear). We perceived it as we got to practice for free! Yayyy!
The next day, we were all excited to start our zipline tour and had so much fun! Ziplining was once one of my biggest fears and now it is one of my favorite things to do.
Throughout both of these experiences, I had to be very deliberate about changing my vibes so that I would follow through with what I wanted. I have found that fear is simply the unknown, a learned behavior and very well could be a vibrational pattern we’ve picked up along the way. And that’s ok. All of that can be changed. In order to overcome the fear of indoor skydiving and ziplining, I had to change my vibes….negative, fear serving thinking to positive, faith serving thinking then introduce myself to what I’m scared of, practice it and build a happy relationship with it.
Simply put….Replace fear with faith and enjoy the journey.
Question for you…….Have you ever had to be very deliberate about coaching yourself to do something? How did it go? Were you able to move through it and do it anyway? I’m looking forward to reading your comments below.
Til Next Time…
Change Your Vibes, Change Your Life!